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Overcoming the ballet body image.

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A Good Run!

This morning my alarm went off at 5.  I was a bit groggy when I woke up (who wouldn’t be) but surprisingly not as tired as when I wake up at the same time on a workday.  Weird.  I got myself ready for my run and had a graham cracker with peanut butter on it before I headed out.


I did a slightly different beginning today.  I Mat suggested it because it would add about a mile to my nearly 12 mile run without it feeling like I was coming right back home and having to go past again like I mentioned last night.  It must have worked.  I started the run off kind of slow and easy so I wouldn’t risk tiring out.  I never really push it on long runs except to make sure I run the whole thing and finish it, but I also wanted to make sure this morning that I didn’t push it too fast at the beginning without realizing it.

I am SO PROUD of myself for getting through the full 13 miles without feeling fatigued.  Sure, I got tired, but in the usual way.  It’s a tiny personal victory to have a good run after a bad one last Saturday.

After my run, I showered and then got the dusting and vacuuming done.  It’s really nice to put my leftover running high energy into cleaning right away – that way it’s done and I don’t have to worry about it on Sunday and can rest instead.  I still need to clean the kitchen and Mat needs to clean the bathroom, but the rest is done.  The laundry is already started too.

Breakfast was a sliced banana with strawberries and overnight oats.



In this overnight oats:

  • 3/4 cup oats
  • peanut butter
  • chocolate chips
  • milk mixed with protein powder
  • granola (added right before eating)

I also had iced coffee with milk and Hershey’s:





The plan for the rest of the afternoon is to wrap my aunt’s birthday gift and hang around the house for a while.  We’re going to dinner for her birthday tonight and hopefully will have some time beforehand to wander around the mall a bit like we used to when we lived at home.  Oh, nostalgia.  🙂  It’s shaping up to be a very lovely Saturday!


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The Bad Run

Today’s run was bad.

I woke up at 5 am (yes, on a Saturday, I know, but I’d rather do that than suffer in the sun).  I was actually motivated this time to run 14 miles.  This hasn’t happened in a long time.  Usually when I wake up to run I have to force my butt out the door.  This lack of energy and motivation started sometime in the spring as my body and brain were getting more and more tired from planning the wedding and going through a very tough school year.  So, it’s pretty obvious that having excitement (and a little bit of nerves) was something I was going to welcome wholeheartedly and not put to waste.

So, off I went on my usual 14 mile route.  The first 3.5 miles are a loop around the complex and surrounding area and then I do an 11ish mile long run through Irvine.  Those first 3.5 miles were fine, a little tiring, but it often takes a while for my legs and body to get warmed up so I wasn’t too worried about it.  Then, about 4-4.5 miles into the whole thing, I noticed my legs were suddenly TIRED.  Like, way more tired than I’m used to experiencing.  Generally I’ll get tired but I’m able to push through it and in fact will force myself to push through because I HATE giving up.  But this was a different kind of tired.  This was that bad tired where your legs are essentially screaming at you to just STOP.

I paused and drank some water and shook out my legs, then started up again.  A bit later I was exhausted again.  Pause, drink water, shake it out, try again.  Finally I just decided that I needed to stop.  I had thought about stopping both times I’d paused earlier but wanted to try and see if I could work through it before giving up.  I always wonder if I really need to stop or if I’m just being “lazy.”  But something in my gut was telling me to stop.  Grudgingly, I listened to it and turned around.

During the 3 mile walk back my legs were fine compared to running, but I could tell they were tired.  I soaked in the tub for a bit to relax my muscles and then took a warm shower.  I then decide to knock out some chores: I changed the sheets, started laundry, dusted, vacuumed, and ran to Costco.  (Side note: Costco at 10 am on a Saturday morning is WAY better than any other time of day).  I finally got around to eating when I got back.


Today’s breakfast was overnight oats with chocolate protein powder:


In the mix:

  • peanut butter
  • 1/2 cup oats
  • generous handful chocolate chips
  • milk mixed with protein powder
  • granola added before I ate it

We recently bought this protein powder on Amazon.  It’s huge!


You can tell how big it is from the toaster oven, mixer, and crock pot in the background.

I mixed the protein powder into the milk before adding it to the oats so it would dissolve properly.  It definitely made the whole thing taste like chocolatey goodness, which I’m definitely not opposed to.  🙂

With the oats I also had a banana with a few strawberries,


iced coffee with milk and Hershey’s,


and chocolate coconut water to help my sore leg muscles.


I took a long time to eat because of switching out laundry, checking email, and chatting with my mom-in-law for a few minutes.  I’m also working on burning copies of our wedding pictures to give to our parents.  Then, this afternoon I’m going to my Kappa big sis’s bridal shower!

I sure hope next Saturday is more successful run-wise.  I’m so frustrated!


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Whew, What a Morning

My alarm went off at 6 this morning and initially I did NOT want to get up.  I reset it for 20 minutes later, but then after about 5 minutes knew it was useless and I wasn’t going to fall back asleep anyway, so I got up.  I was originally planning for 14 miles today, but when I woke up I wasn’t feeling it anymore.  That happens a lot actually, but this morning I realized that it might not be the best idea to jump from 10 miles (which I’ve done for the past several Saturdays) to 14 miles when I’ve had rough runs because of the heat.  I quickly altered my usual 14 mile route to be a 12-miler, and got myself out the door.

Because it was cloudy and misty, it was actually a really good run.  I didn’t get super tired, and felt pretty good the whole time, just like I did a year ago when I was increasing my mileage for the first time in preparation for my first half-marathon (Long Beach).  I hope the weather stays this way, at least in the morning, because it’s SO. MUCH. EASIER. to run and takes a lot less mental motivation to get through a long run.

When I got back, I busied myself straightening up the apartment.  There were several bags of stuff my mom had given me from my old room that I needed to go through, and I also needed to get the last 3 place settings washed and put away.  While I was pulling stickers off everything, Mat texted me that he was probably going to leave work early because he didn’t feel well – waves of nausea, sinus stuff, and shakiness.  Naturally I got worried, and he couldn’t respond much because he was at work.  Around 10 he said he was coming home, and I went off to Target (still in my gross running clothes) to get ginger ale, saltines, and chicken noodle soup.  He was able to eat just fine, but he was totally exhausted.  He didn’t sleep much at all both Tuesday and Wednesday night because of early shifts, and on Wednesday night he felt hot and clammy even though the air was on.  The hot and clammy continued into Thursday, and he tried to take a nap that afternoon but couldn’t fall asleep.  He took NyQuil that night and last night so he could sleep, but I think it just wasn’t enough.  Drugged sleep isn’t quite as good as natural sleep anyway.  He’s taking a nap now, and hopefully will be better when he wakes up.  We’re going to an outdoor picnic/concert tonight with my parents, my sister, and her boyfriend, and we definitely don’t want to miss it.  We also have church in the morning for my mom’s high school choir reunion.

Whew.  See what I mean?

Around noon I finally got around to eating.  I had a banana and yummy overnight oats:


  • peanut butter
  • 1/2 cup oats
  • handful chocolate chips
  • milk
  • strawberries and cereal added this morning

I had iced coffee with milk and Hershey’s too.


Now it’s time to finish laundry, enter quiz grades in the grade book, and make the quinoa salad for tonight’s picnic.  Have a good Saturday!

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Sticky and Sunny

I’ve never really shared my pre-long run snacks, and today I remembered to take a picture.  I try to keep these snacks easy and pretty small.  I also like a mix of some sort of carb/sugar and protein.  Peanut butter is usually used.  🙂

Today was no exception.  A graham cracker with peanut butter:


I love peanut butter.

If you saw my DailyMile post this morning, you’d see that I had a sticky and sunny run.  I got up at 6 (that’s going to get harder and harder as the school year gets going…hopefully the weather calms down soon so I can start getting up at 7 again) and of course, by the time I got out the door all sunscreened up and with a full bottle of water in tow, the sun was already coming out and the air felt thick.  This does not do good things for the psyche.

When I first started, I instantly thought, oh crap.  This might be painful.  I had that tired feeling that I’ve been having a lot lately and just can’t seem to shake.  It’s getting really frustrating.  But, I pushed through anyway because I’m the idiot who doesn’t want to keep going and gets really tired yet still doesn’t stop.  I only stop when I really and truly cannot physically keep going.  It’s both good and bad.  That’s not to say though, that I don’t get slower as I run.  🙂

It was hot this morning.  Have I said that already?

After my run, I showered and threw on some clothes and went to pick up a couple prescriptions from the pharmacy.  I’m glad I got that over with.  It was a pain waiting for my face wash to come it because they had to order a slightly different one.  I’m completely out of my old one and my skin has been flaring up again all of a sudden, so I’m very thankful to have it back.


I love breakfast.  Especially when it consists of this:


Overnight oats: peanut butter (told you I love it), 1/2 cup oats, chocolate chips and milk sat overnight in the fridge and this morning I added a few strawberries and granola.  I had a banana on the side and iced coffee with milk and Hershey’s.

Today I have little things like laundry to do, and I also want to get a few things done for school.  The school stuff may carry into tomorrow, but I don’t mind that because I have the entire morning until about 2 pm before we go to a going-away party.

I understand why school starts earlier than it used to, and believe me once November comes and I have a week off at Thanksgiving and then December comes and I have 3 weeks off for Christmas, it’s worth it.  But right now?  Right now it’s hot and gross and I’d rather be at the beach.  It’s just wrong to be back in school when it’s so hot.  Oh well.  I’m employed.  I’m happy and thankful for that.

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First Day Back

The first day back to work was a pretty easy one.  We had various staff development presentations from 8-11:30 and were done for the day.  It was nice to ease back into work like that.  We have more staff development tomorrow and Monday and then have all day Tuesday to work in our rooms.

One of the first things I did when I got there was check my teaching assignment.  As I hoped, I have periods 1-4 of Algebra 2, 5th period prep, and 6th period Dance Production.  This excites me GREATLY.  I’ve taught Algebra 2 every year since I began teaching which means I’m very comfortable with it and won’t have to do a whole lot of prep work besides tweaking things to make them better.  I’ve taught Geometry a lot before, including both previous years at Century, and while it’s interesting, it’s not my favorite area of math to teach.  I’m pretty excited to not have that subject and to just have one math class to worry about.  Dance Production is already going to be challenging as I figure out what I’m doing!

However, I’m excited about teaching dance.  I’ll feel better once I get some questions answered on Monday when the other dance teacher is back, but overall I’m excited.  It will be so nice to teach something that’s been a passion since I was little.


I ate breakfast before work (I usually bring it with me) because I didn’t need to get there early to work in my room and prep for the day.  I finished the last of the Greek yogurt and topped it with strawberries, cereal, and honey.  Naturally, I had iced coffee with it (and took more iced coffee with me).


After work I went to Costco because we were out of or running low on a bunch of basics.  I was STARVING when I got home (that’s what happens when you eat at 7 am and don’t get home until 1 pm).  I had bought almond butter at Costco and was totally craving it, so I made some oatmeal, chilled it, and added milk, almond butter, a few chocolate chips, and a banana.


This afternoon is chock full of school things, blog things, and going to ballet.  I have lots to do to get ready for the new school year and lots of things buzzing around my head for the blog.  Thankfully, the new school year is bringing new motivation.  It also helps a LOT to know what I’m teaching and to know that it’s something totally manageable.  I think *fingers crossed* I’m really going to like this year’s schedule.  🙂

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Strange Dream

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This morning I woke up at 6 after a more restless night of sleep than I’d like to have. I woke up in the middle if a weird dream where I was back to work and was with kids but there were bad kids with knives and scary things and we were trying to hide. That’s basically all I remember. Weird, right? *shudder* I hate those dreams where you wake up and have to shake it off.

Fortunately, a dream like that makes you wake up much faster because you’re anxious to get your mind off of it and get back to reality. I was able to pul l myself out of bed fairly quickly and got dressed and sunscreened up for my 10 mile run. The sun was already beginning to show itself when I woke up, so needless to say I wasn’t too thrilled. At least there’s more shady spots on the route when the sun isn’t all the way up yet.

The air was coolish when I first went outside, but that must have had something to do with the shade of our apartment complex because it soon became muggy and humid. It could have been worse I suppose, but running into the sun at various points didn’t help either. I had sunglasses and water, but it was still quite warm the whole time. I even purposely ran through some sprinklers toward the end just to get some relief.

Part of what got me through the run was telling myself that I had overnight oats waiting for me for breakfast and that I could jump in the pool (yes, with my clothes on). I was sad when I hit back and discovered that, even though the pool is supposed to open at 8 am, the gates were still locked. Grrrr.

I gave up and went to take a shower. And enjoy my overnight oats. And iced coffee with milk and hersheys. Mmmm…


In the mix:

  • 1/2 cup oats
  • peanut butter
  • generous handful chocolate chips
  • milk
  • strawberries (added this morning)

    It was delicious, as always.

    Now it’s time to get my hair cut, colored, and smoothed a la Brazilian blowout. Woohoo!

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    My Last Long Run

    It wasn’t my last long run ever, but it was my last long run for the next month or so.  For the last couple of months I’ve had a slight feeling of…not dread, but definitely UGH when I wake up for my long Saturday runs.  Particularly when the long Saturday run is a 14-miler.  Today was no exception.  But, I tried to calm myself down by reminding myself that it was my last long run for a while.

    I’m not sure how much it helped.

    This run was tough.  I don’t know if it’s because I didn’t do a long run last weekend or because my body is just plain worn out despite having been off work for the last week.  But, I told myself that I was NOT going to give up because this was IT.  This was the LAST long run until we get back from our honeymoon.  And even then, I probably won’t be up to running 14 on the first Saturday after we’re back.

    Somehow, even though I was pretty tired through most of it, I made it through.  I knew that once I was done I would feel that amazing feeling of accomplishment that only happens when you finish a long run that was hard.  And sure enough, when I hit the corner by the apartment and finally stopped, I felt amazing.  Super tired, but amazing.

    After taking a lovely shower and putting on some makeup to make myself feel alive again, I settled down to enjoy a peach and overnight oats.

    best. breakfast. ever.

    I also had iced coffee with milk and hersheys.

    On the agenda for today: do some laundry, do some relaxing, and pack to go home for our wedding week!!

    Countdown: 6 days!!!