Dancing for Food

Overcoming the ballet body image.

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Long Beach Half Marathon 2012

Oh my, where do I begin?  While this was the same race I did last year as my first half marathon ever, it was definitely not my favorite.  To start with, I didn’t get enough sleep AT ALL.  We had Amanda and Conor over to make leaving in the morning easier, and while it certainly was easier, it made for getting to bed later than was ideal.

I wasn’t too worried about it – I wasn’t expecting a great night’s sleep.  But then, I couldn’t fall asleep.  And Mat, I love him to pieces but when he takes over the middle of the bed or rolls over and hits me with his arm while I’m already having trouble falling asleep and am getting myself all worked up over it because of the thought of wanting to PR in a half marathon in the morning, it’s annoying.

It’s ok though.  He cooks me good food and loves ME to pieces so I forgive him.  🙂

Once I woke up this morning, I felt ok.  I ate a tiny granola bar I got free at the expo on Friday, slathered on the sunscreen (I learned my lesson with oh so cute tank top lines in 2 out of 3 previous races), and we were off.

Traffic getting there was nonexistent because we left so early.  We had plenty of time to hit the portapotties once or twice before lining up at the start.

I was running alongside Mat for the first 1/4-1/2 mile or so and then he took off.  I knew he would (he was hoping to finish between 1:40 and 1:50).  I just wanted to try to keep the pace I was doing.  We both started in wave 1, even though I technically should have started in wave 2, and that helped because you didn’t have to weave around all the slow people and the people walking.  Wave 1 was for finishing between 1:16-1:50 and wave 2 was for finishing between 1:51-2:05.

Around mile 2-3 I was already feeling fatigued.  I pushed through anyway hoping I’d feel better by mile 5.  I sort of did, but for the most part I was constantly fighting fatigue in my legs.  When I passed the first clock somewhere between miles 6 and 7, it said 56ish minutes (gun time).  I figured that if I could keep the pace I was doing I MIGHT be able to break 2 hours.  Or at least come very close.  But, I also knew that I had the long stretch of beach ahead of me still that I had hated last year.  Even though I’d remembered my sunglasses this year (you run toward the sun for a good 2 or 2.5 miles) I was still worried.

Obviously, that worry was a bad thing.  It made it harder.  I just kept telling myself that I was hurting less today than I was last year because I was much more prepared (last year my max distance going into the race was 10 miles the weekend before).  When we finally reached the turn and could put the sun behind us for the last 3ish miles, I was very happy.  Still very fatigued, but I got my Clif Shot at mile 10 and tried to focus on the face that I was almost done.

We reahed the split at 10.8 and I was incredibly relieved to only be running the half.  Honestly, there were times during this race, including at the split, where I wondered if I’d be able to make it the whole way running.  But, I’m stubborn and only allow myself to walk through water stations, simply because it’s difficult to drink water out of cups without spilling it all over yourself.  (Now, when the sun is out I don’t mind spilling, but then I don’t get as much to drink which is bad).

I saw mile 11.  I pep talked myself that I only had 2 miles.  I’d done 11 on tired legs, what was 2 more?

I saw mile 12.  Only 1 more!

I saw the marathon mile 26 marker.  Only .2 to go.  There was the finish.  It’s a downhill finish.  Time for one last push of energy!

I flew down that downhill toward the finish.  I just wanted to be DONE!  Right before I crossed, the timer said 2:05.  I knew that I’d started about 30 seconds, maybe more, after the gun, so either way I had PRed.  My previous PR was 2:08:33.  I didn’t break 2 hours, but I wasn’t really expecting that.  Honestly, I was getting so worn down today that I just wanted to finish the damn thing without walking.

Needless to say, it was not the best race.  My body was arguing against me, it hadn’t had enough sleep, and my mind was against me too.  The fact that I still PRed despite all the negative thoughts in my head and my legs feeling like jello makes me pretty excited.  🙂  (At the time of posting, official race times were not available.  Mat did finish under 1:50 though).

However, soon after my poor system began to hate me.  You know those stomach cramps and nausea you sometimes get after pushing yourself through a long run?  Yeah that was me.  It lasted much longer than I’m used to and was much worse than I’ve ever experienced. UGH.

But, on a positive note, some pictures from after the race!

Mom and Amanda after finishing the 5k.  Amanda ran the whole thing even though she hasn’t really been running lately!



Mat and Daddy – they got their Beach Cities medals!



Mat and I:




Once my stomach issues were over, I was able to eat.  Thank God…I needed FOOD!  It was fitting that today’s Instagram photo challenge was “splurge:”


Overnight oats (peanut butter, oats, milk, chocolate protein powder, flax seed, and chocolate chips topped with granola and strawberries right before eating), banana, strawberries, chocolate chip banana bread with peanut butter (thank you Mommy!) and ice coffee with milk and Hershey’s.

Like I said, it was a splurge.

And now?  It’s all about the tv watching and total lounging.  We’re both pretty sore.  We’re also planning to go through some wedding pictures and start picking out what to put in the photo book our photographers are making.

As for running this week?  There won’t be much of it.  I need rest, that is very clear.


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Quinoa Paella

Tonight we made this recipe.  We altered it to have no mushrooms or olives (eww) and added a can of corn.  We also doubled the entire thing (the full can of corn was for the doubled version).  It was delicious!  Nice and smoky with a spicy kick too.  We were thinking it would be excellent with shrimp added to it.  As soon as Mat suggested it I think my eyes went wide and I said, “Yes, we must do that.”


We paired it with a salad (of course) and the last of the honeydew from Saturday night.  And, we have tons of leftovers for tomorrow!

I was proud of myself for getting some more choreography figured out for tomorrow’s practice.  I’m tired, but excited to almost finish the dance tomorrow.  Hopefully it gets totally finished on Wednesday!

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Usually I Don’t Bring Work Home

If you’re a teacher, it probably sounds disgusting that I don’t usually bring work home.  But it’s true.  With the exception of Friday quizzes that don’t get graded somehow in between things during the day, I really try not to bring work home.  I get my planning done during my prep period or in the morning, and I’d rather stay after school an extra half hour than bring stuff home.  Bring work home, while sometimes unavoidable for a teacher, is never healthy.  I discovered this the hard way.

However, today I had to do work at home.  I just haven’t had a chance to finalize my syllabus and all of those first day/week of school type things.  So, for a good 2 hours I was sitting with my laptop working on stuff.

It’s interesting because the concept of working from home has intrigued me in the past, yet somehow that doesn’t feel the same as taking work home.  Who knows.

After I finished my work, we sat in the jacuzzi for a little while.  It wasn’t as enjoyable as usual because it was still pretty warm outside, which was a bummer.


Dinner was leftover bean and rice stir fr from the other night paired with salad and cantaloupe.



Because I’m a bit anxious about work, I’m craving chocolate BADLY.  But I’m trying really hard to resist.

On another note, I love this cartoon:


I can’t tell you how true that is.

Time for Bunheads and then bed.  Good night!

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OC Fair Drop-off

Earlier today, my sister asked me to do her a favor.  She was going to a concert at the OC Fair tonight and needed a ride because the other girls were going earlier when she wasn’t able to.  Like a good big sister, I said sure.  🙂

It was easy getting to her apartment.  It was easy getting to the fair.  It was not easy getting off the freeway and trying to turn onto the street of the fair.  Then we ended up getting funneled into the parking line.  Since I wasn’t parking, I drove down a section you probably weren’t supposed to drive down and asked if I could just drop her off and pull out and leave.  Fortunately, they said sure.

When I got home, Mat had already made salad to go with last night’s leftovers.  He has to work at 3:30 am tomorrow so we needed to eat as soon as possible.

Salad with Italian dressing and parmesan cheese:


Leftover pasta:




I love honeydew.  Seriously.  I dew.  (Oh dear, I’m such a weirdo sometimes).

In other news, I’m REALLY into this blog designer.  It’s pricey, but I would love to have them redesign the blog.  We’ll see how things go – maybe I can save up some extra money in the next couple months.

Mat is supposed to be going to bed, yet he watched the last few minutes of Destination Truth.  Now he’s stuck on Toddlers and Tiaras.  The show I imagine he wonders why I watch.

But this one is about that honey boo boo girl and etiquette lessons.  Enough said.

I think tonight may be an early-ish night.  I want a nice long time to read, if anything.


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8 Miles and Cleaning

This morning I accomplished 8 miles.  This is the farthest distance I’ve done since before our wedding.  I’m happy to say that it was successful.  The sun was already out when I got up at 7, which was annoying, but I knew I was going to run anyway and just deal with it.  It’s not that I hate the sun, in fact I LOVE the sun, but running it the sun makes you much more tired much faster.

Fortunately, portions of my route were shaded so I got a break every now and then.  I also dumped some water on my head a couple of times.  It really is amazing how much that helps.

When I got back, after my shower, I started organizing and cleaning.  The moving clutter has since morphed into bridal shower/wedding clutter and has been driving me nuts.  Also, my mom has been slowly giving me bags of stuff from my room that I never took when I moved.  Since I have no idea what to do with it (2 reasons: limited space in the apartment and not really needing/wanting it) it’s sat there.  Today I forced myself to go through it.  That led into cleaning up other random clutter that’s been building up.  I’m still not satisfied with where everything got put away, but I really don’t know what else to do.

We need a house.  Plain and simple.  Luckily our down payment money is accessible in December (it’s a special account with a special interest rate and you can’t withdraw without penalty for a 2.5 years from when you open it) and we’re planning to start looking this fall. I’ve already browsed online quite a bit, and there are lots of options out there.  When they say now is the time to buy, they aren’t kidding!  There’s pretty big houses in nice areas for VERY reasonably prices (well, reasonably for Orange County).

Back to the cleaning.  A lot of stuff is now put away, the kitchen is clean including the stove (I took that bad boy apart and REALLY cleaned), and the living room is dusted.  When Mat is up from his nap, the bedroom can get dusted and the whole place vacuumed.  Ah, I can’t wait for EVERYTHING to be clean.  I love living in a clean place!  (Side note: I really do not understand those hoarders you see on TLC.  I mean, I know it’s an actual mental disease of some sort, but HOW DO YOU LIVE IN SUCH FILTH??  Just having too much dust or a little bit of clutter drives me crazy.)


Because I was on such a cleaning spree, I never got around to eating anything post-run until almost noon.  I guess it was a combined breakfast/lunch.  I hadn’t had a pb&j in a long time, so I went with that, with a banana and a plum on the side.

sometimes a classic pb&j is just amazing

Now, I’m considering giving myself a home pedicure.  🙂



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Home for Wedding Week!!

After church this morning, I went home to my parent’s house.  I spent some time when I first got home reorganizing all the wedding stuff.

ready to go to the church and the summit house on thursday

more stuff, including my suitcase AND duffel bag so i can function this week (run, go to ballet at my home studio, and go to our nail party and rehearsal dinner!)

the last few things

When I first got home, I saw the gift table my mom set up in the living room:

Presents are exciting!!!!  One of those boxes is actually empty with a hole cut in the top so that if guests bring cards they have a place to go that’s more secure than just a basket or sitting on the table.

My mom also bought this and hung it:

we had a totally lorelai and rory moment of giggling when she showed it to me

I finally stopped to eat lunch? Late breakfast?  I’m not sure what it was.  I had a pb&j with a banana and nutella on the side:

Later on, I took the 2 mile walk that I used to take a long time ago.  When I got back I was greeted by buddy cat!

buddy cat!!

Buddy cat is not his name.  Mat and I dubbed him that because he always came up to us after a walk or jumped in the car when Mat would leave for the night.  Generally speaking I’m not a fan of cats, but I’ve missed him!

Another fun thing I came home to: my dad put a hook in the wall to hang my dress from on Thursday after it’s steamed, and he also cleaned the walls and vacuumed so my dress won’t get dirty.

my daddy rocks!

Dinner was turkey tenderloin (yes, I ate turkey.  I can’t really avoid chicken and turkey while at home, and honestly I’ve been craving it anyway), salad, and grilled squash.  My mom and I split the last of the port wine so I can take the bottle to the florist tomorrow with the rest of the bottles, and I had a couple of squares of dark chocolate with it.  Delish!

It’s wedding week!  Tomorrow: 5 mile run, get all the wine bottles to the florist, hang out, and ballet at my home studio!  And then possibly hanging out with my bff and bridesmaid Steph at her new apartment!

Countdown: 4 days!!!!



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I am a total foodie.  Especially when I’m stressed or have a lot of things on my mind.  I was hoping that at this point in the wedding process I would  be too preoccupied to eat, but that’s not the case.  Instead, I find myself craving all things bad.  Especially chocolate.  *sigh*


Today’s breakfast was my usual: cottage cheese with granola and strawberries and iced coffee with milk and sugar.  I’m really loving the iced coffee lately – those coffee ice cubes are brilliant!

one of my favorite breakfasts!

This was enjoyed during my (2 hour) prep period after returning all my graphing calculators.  The 2 hour prep is nice, but I have to say it’s pretty long.  You kind of get bored, especially if you’re like me and an obsessive planner and therefore don’t have much you can do.


Since this is finals week and school ended at 12:30, I got to have lunch at home.  I decided to mix it up a little with a peach, grapes, and a piece of bread spread with peanut butter and sprinkled with chocolate chips.

i love this lunch!

After lunch we had our final meeting with our wedding dj.  Check the wedding page for that update!


For dinner we tried out a new recipe that I found on Pinterest: Black Bean, Mango, Avocado and Quinoa Salad.  It was delish!

You can find the recipe here.  We doubled all but the quinoa to make sure it would stretch for 2 nights as a main dish.

And that’s it for today.  I’m feeling the stress of having the school year basically done and the wedding planning basically done.  I know, that sounds odd (how does having big things done make you stressed?) but it’s true.  I think it’s because of all the anticipation that’s been building up over the past many many months and now to have it all finally happening, all at the same time, is overwhelming.  It’s not necessarily bad, but your wedding is sort of the biggest day of your life so even though things are checked off the list it’s still not here yet!

Countdown: 2 days of school and 16 days until our wedding